Not enough.....

Apparently, an almost 4 pound loss still wasn't enough to enourage or deter me from bingeing yet again yesterday. Another day, another gargantuan quantity of food in the afternoon. 3 pm seems to be the enemy lately. I'm an hour and fifteen minutes away today. I think we're going to be fine today, but we'll see.

The only good thing about the overeating of the last 3 days has been that I have been honest about it with my husband. See, I'm a secret eater. I prefer to buy a bunch of food when I"m alone, eat it alone, and hide all evidence that I've ever had it. So my family doesn't generally see me eat that much, but yet, they have watched me gain 50 pounds or more and don't really understand where it comes from. That's because of the lies. If nothing else, I am not lying about my food intake. I figure that I have to start somewhere, right?

Last night's workout was especially brutal. I mean, 1000 calories worth of candy is not exactly fuel for working out. I felt gross from the moment I walked in. Was dizzy and shaking almost the entire time. Exercising has been making me feel a little like Superwoman and last night, all I wanted to do was yell, "I quit!" But I didn't. I finished it all. Each and every station, rep and lift. And I'm glad I did. That felt like yet another teeny tiny baby step forward. My eating choices did not dictate the rest of my day and I followed through with my commitment to work out.

I'm trying it again tonight. Working out, I mean. Not bingeing. This will be my first back-to-back days of hitting the gym. I'm pretty nervous but excited at the same time. We'll see.....