disaster.....

Today has been a disaster foodwise. Well, not the whole day. Let's elaborate. I woke up around my usual time. Ate a normal breakfast. Had my regular kind of snack. A delicious and healthy lunch.

Then came 3pm. Between 3pm and 4pm today, I consumed more than 1800 calories. 1800. That's my whole day. More than many people eat in a day. In one hour. What did it take to reach that number? 3 slices of pizza plus 2 full size candy bars plus 6 fun size candy bars.

Needless to say, the Halloween candy is officially leaving our home. Nearly all of it anyway. We'll keep a few pieces for the kids, but the quantity we have now is clearly not good for me. I am always like this. I'm great most of the day, then around mid-afternoon, it's like BAM! Must eat now! And I never eat just a little. It's always huge portions. Not like a few bites throughout the day. Nope, all at one. As in, while eating the pizza, I had the candy lined up and waiting. Now, some 6 hours later, I still feel like vomiting. Part of that feeling comes from the quantity of food and part from the self-disgust I still feel. This is where the real battle lies. My instinct when I loathe my actions like I do right now is to.....you guessed it....eat large quantities of food. I'm trying to blog instead.

So far, it is working. The plan for tomorrow is to go to the gym and get back on track with the eating. I can do this. I will do this.

Tomorrow is also weigh-in day! That really could go either way at this point. Guess I'll just have to get to sleep so that I can wake up and find out. Night!