Binge....sorta

Yesterday was a less than stellar day.  I decided about mid-morning that I wanted candy.  A candy binge to be more exact.  So, I PLANNED, that after dropping my daughter off at kindergarten that I would go buy some.  I went to the grocery store and got a bag of fun size Snickers, a bag of fun size Baby Ruth, a bag of fun size Milky Way, and a bag of Hostess donettes.  Then I came home and sat down to eat.  It did not go as planned.  For whatever reason, they just did not taste like I thought it would.  I ended up eating less than half the bag of donuts (about 10 mini chocolate donuts), 4 Baby Ruth bars, and about 6 of the Milky Way bars.  I never even opened the Snickers bag and I ended up throwing away all the rest of the food.  Calorie wise, it was a lot but not earth shattering.  More than anything it was eye-opening.  I have been reading Intuitive Eating (more on that later) and I just kept thinking "Does this taste good?  Am I enjoying it?" And honestly, the answer was no.  I couldn't even really force myself to eat it.  Hopefully, this means some progress is being made.  I'm trying my best to use my "Food Anthropologist" voice and simply observe yesterday's actions, evaluate the whys, and move on.  No shame and judgement.  Just the facts.  It's working a little.  Turns out, that my mother, my husband, and myself all went a little crazy yesterday craving sugar.  The only thing that was different in our eating?  The night before we had Mexican food at a restaurant.  Makes me wonder if something about that triggered it.  Food for thought.....

Weigh-in Day No. 13

Yes! Yes! Yes!  Out of the 260's.  And it feels great!

Weigh-in Day No. 12

On a roll now.  I have been killing it in the gym and my food choices have been great!  Almost down to my lowest weight of this journey so far! 

Weigh-in Day No. 11

About a 3 pound loss.  Much better than last week!  And I have got to get a pedicure.  Sheesh.

Weigh-in Day No. 10

This week has been a colossal fail.  I didn't even take a picture of my weight.  I know it.  I checked it.  The final? 266.5  I stayed pretty close to my goal for the holidays.  And I keep reminding myself that last year, on January 2nd (cause you know that each year starts the big "weight loss"....right.) I weighed in at 291.  And honestly, I think I had been closer to or at 300 for the couple of months leading up to that.  But my official recorded weight was 291.  So, 25 pounds less than I started 2011.  We'll call that a success.  And just keep moving.  Stay tuned.